It’s the 26th December 2018.
At the beginning of the year, I was just a shell of a person. I don’t even remember Christmas or the New Year, and life’s journey was taking its toll not only on me, but my loved ones as well.
There are FIVE days left of 2018.
How will you choose to walk into 2019? 🤔
I repeat…How will you CHOOSE to enter the new year?
I feel like a hyprocrite. I am constantly saying to not let the behaviour or opinions of others effect your inner peace, but of late, I have found my inner peace has been rattled because of how much I care about another person’s journey. And I’ve been allowing it to have an effect on how I feel. Hello my familiar friend, anxiety…. 😒
But I’m confused. How can you come so far in your own quest to only find old, familiar feelings resurfacing?
The answer is DOUBT!
I am doubting my new found strength and happiness!
Well, NO MORE! ❌
I choose strength and happiness for 2019! 💪🏻😁
I choose to completely and utterly ignore my doubt. I choose to reinforce to myself that I am strong, independent, healthy and happy! Because I have made it that way!
Life is not to just exist in, we are here to live!
I REFUSE to give in to my old fears and self disbelief. I know the life I want now, and am saying NO to everything else! ✋🏻
I am choosing to leave behind things and people in my life that were only there to help me learn how to be who I am now. They can remain in 2018.
“After all, the future is nothing more than the outcome of what you are doing in the present.”
I have learned that nobody’s perfect. We all make mistakes. But the strength lies in those who get up and learn from their mistakes.
Don’t be ashamed of your past…be proud of what you have overcome! 🌟
Yesterday, I reconnected with people who I haven’t seen for at least a year, to share Christmas 2018 with. TWO of these people commented on my journey and congratulated me on the massive changes I have made. ONE person didn’t even recognise me 👀 I had to ask my husband on the way home, “Are the changes in me that obvious to others?”. I am still learning to trust my own opinion of my changes. I came home and looked at myself in the mirror and could see it in my own face.
I know within myself the journey I have been on in order to achieve the life I want. Is it just a part of being human that over time you seem to forget the pain, and need reassurance to help you keep moving forward??? Will I reach a point where I can completely depend on myself for that reassurance? I choose YES!
And that someone is YOU!
Only when you start treating yourself the way you truly deserve, you realise how badly you were existing before.
Don’t be afraid of saying ‘no’ to people. Choose your battles… you do not have to show up to every argument you are invited to. You do not have to do anything you don’t want to!!!
Breathe. You know you. You know your strength. You know your journey and you have won! 🏆
Now, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and walk head high into 2019!
Happy New Year 🥳
Stay well 🙏🏻